February 21, 2013

trust

I was reading my bible one afternoon. And praying in earnest...begging if you will...for more trust and faith in the Lord.

Right afterward, I read Kaylee(of LifeChasers) blog post on Trust. Coincidence?

I think not. I don't believe in coincidences. I loved what she wrote and it echoed my heart in this season I am in.

At church a few Sundays later the sermon was on worrying. Our Pastor Jeff talked about how often we downplay the sin of worry, in comparison to murder, lust, etc...

We say "Oh, but I'm a worrier!" like it's no big thing. Just a cute little pet sin. Somehow in the church circles it seems more 'acceptable' to admit we are worriers...rather than admit that we are liars or thiefs or adulterers.

But when we rip off the mask of worry, what lies beneath is ugly: It reveals a lack of trust in God. It's like we're saying "You are not big enough God".

And though I've been following the Lord for a while, quite honestly this is where I find myself more often than I'd like to admit.

Worrying.
Over controlling.
Lack of trust in God. 

My friends, I can be a bit pathetic in these above areas at times and you need to know that I'm a work in progress. I have not "arrived", so to speak.

My dear mama spoke at a church breakfast in January and she was awesome. And funny. And so real.

She spoke on trials.

And likened trials to a jack hammer, pounding on the bedrock of our souls...breaking up the pieces of rock to expose what's hidden beneath.

Like pride. Or dependence on self.

When life is carefree, I'm tempted to think I'm a pretty trusting disciple of the Lord.

But when the jackhammer starts pounding my bedrock, it exposes worry and lack of trust. I can see it popping right out.

Mom said that as we mature in the Lord, we actually become MORE dependent on God...trusting like a little child.
Twain is completely dependent on me. I mean, look at his hair in the above pic. He's completely  at my mercy. (Don't worry, his hair has since been cut. Phew. This is an old pic).

Anyhow, I would not do one thing to intentionally hurt Twain. Any discipline I administer, is done out of love for Twain...done for his own good.

And so it is with God. Everything He does is for my good.

He loves me...way more than I could ever love my boys. How can this be? My mind cannot comprehend this.

Whenever I find myself fretting over something, I find it helpful to think of God's love for me. I tell myself "If my kids can trust me, I can trust God". Because God is a WAY better parent than I could ever hope to be.
Even when it hurts and life is completely unmanageable.

Because God is good. He can't be otherwise. It's impossible in His nature to be bad.

The devil on the other hand, is the author of every sort of painful, evil thing to hit this planet: death, disease, sorrow, strife.

I don't want to keep practicing and honing my skills of worrying. I don't want to get so good at worrying that it becomes a way of life. Worry IS a sin...can be a habitual sin if we let it.

So when I find myself worrying about something{again}, I flick my wrist. And tell myself to STOP. And instead I pray the situation over to God.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus". Philippians 4:6-7

The more I acknowledge and confess my worries to the Lord, the lighter my heart feels.

And though I still have a long way to go, my days have felt so much more peaceful letting go of trying to control things all the time. And slowly learning to trust.

Just wanted to let you know what has been on my mind and heart lately. 

23 comments:

  1. Catching up on your blog. Good words as always, nice sneakers and love the metal print :)

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  2. thanks for being real..and for this reminder/encouragement. so good. hope you have a great weekend. :)

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  3. I SO needed this. My sin of worry has been prevalent in my life for the last 6 1/2 months especially - since my dad passed on to Glory last August. I've always been a worrier, but the suddenness of his death took it to a whole new level. New things to worry about! At first I had peace about it, but then that nasty ol' devil knew he could get me with planting worry in my heart & mind. Boy did he ever! And that is one of the Verses I prayed time and time again - when I didn't know what else to pray.
    Coincidence?
    I think not! :)

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    1. i am sooo sorry for the loss of your dad. that is such tough stuff. much love to you.

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  4. I never thought of worry as a sin but I can see that it is. Thank you for the post. I really needed that.

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  5. pretty much the perfect thing I needed to hear today. I just told my husband and my sister yesterday that I can hearing the Lord say, "do you trust me?". So hard to do, but oh so very important. Thanks for the reminder!

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  6. This year is my year of surrender & trust. I am uncomfortable with both but God's working on it in me ;)

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    1. I understand. Just writing this post made me feel uncomfortable. But I felt God nudge me to write it and it's all about Him, not about me.

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  7. this is a beautiful message and truly hits home!

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  8. Oh, girl, this post is so timely. Just today as I was worrying and fretting away about something that's been happening, I spoke out loud "STOP. JUST STOP." And then I prayed and continued to throughout the afternoon for trust and peace. Thanks for sharing your heart. I'll be praying for us both! xoxo

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  9. So real. so true. Worry can eat at you- thankful for a God that can take those worries away. Thank-you for this perfectly written reminder!

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  10. Thankful for the timing of this post. Your blog has been a gift to me, I love it so much!!

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  11. Thank you for this. The sermon this morning was on the value of transparency in believers, willingness to be vulnerable, to confess our sins and allow others to push and mold us through the Spirit. Thank you for your honesty and words!

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  12. Beautiful and so true. We forget that worry is just a symptom of pride. We think we know better than God or that He isn't enough for our situation. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this! It's so encouraging.

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  13. Yes. I had to learn this the hard way. I ended up in the dr.'s office far to many times with full blown panic attacks. I resolved to this... Gods way or the highway. He can have my worries I don't want them. :) Phil 4 is my go to worry chapter. I love it.
    Great post Davi!

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    1. thanks for sharing! love it! God's way or the highway!

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  14. Love that, "God is a better parent" thing you said. So true! Thanks for sharing your heart Davi!

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  15. I think TRULY trusting God is one of the hardest things to learn.
    Must be why He keeps having to teach us, through new trials and struggles!
    I'm very glad you wrote this, these same things have been on my heart lately too, but I think you put it so much more clearly and simply and beautifully than I could have. I love this post, and your heart for God!

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  16. Davi. This is so, so good. It hit me deep. I guess we are just trading. :)

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  17. so great! needed this today! love the comparison!

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  18. I found your blog today through a random clicking of other blogs. Seems thats how I find all the blogs I love.

    Anyways, I love finding mom blogs that are bold to talk about Christ. Husband (pastor) and I (SAHM) just had our first boy in October and hope to have a full nest of boys one day... adoption is next on our plate. This post was so encouraging and needed for me. Since C has arrived I find myself worrying a whole lot more than ever before. Worries I won't lead him to Jesus everyday or be a good witness to him. Worries he won't come to know Jesus one day and on and on. I have to remember to give Him to Jesus every morning.

    Glad to have found another sister in Christ who strives to be a Godly momma. so encouraging.

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